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A Vessel

I can't perform the miracle, make someone feel better or convert someone by my sheer eloquence. There is nothing in me. I have nothing. I am only a vessel, a channel that God in his grace and mercy chooses to use.

Neither am I a worm but I know where I am in God. I am His servant, Paul often referred himself as the bondslave of Christ. A bondslave is one who had been set free and returns freely to serve his master. The key is, service and servant. He does what the Master asks of him and in this, will be the servant's delight i.e. that the Master's task is done and He is pleased with my service.

I am still trying to understand what it means to be satisfied in God. Why do I love Jesus? Is it because of what He can do for me? I'm still meditating. What if He doesn't answer an important prayer I make and say YES? Will i still love Him? Why do I love Jesus? I am still searching my heart. Before I know why, I will still love Him and serve Him.

I am only a valueless, weak and fragile clay vessel. It's not who I am but it is what is in me IF I let it shine out of me. The precious treasure of the gospel of Jesus Christ gives light and life to those around me. Can you imagine depositing a treasure into something that is not secure? We will usually lock up the treasures in a safe deposit box so that no one can have access to it. Yet God put His treasure in us, weak and feable clay jars to simply demonstrate one thing - the Power comes from him and not from us but the risk is, the treasure might not shine... might be lost... but discredit him....

When we serve, when we do something well. Who gets the glory?

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r.u.t.h. said…
i am still searching my own heart...
3:20 PM
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