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The Deeper Life

I'm currently reading a book by Calvin Miller, entitled "Into the Depths of God" - Publisher: Bethany House. I am half way through the book and this part has caused me to read and re-read several times.

quote pg 105 of book:
"I see three distinct dangers in the pursuit of God. The first danger is that the pursuit of holiness breeds its own inner addiction. Since we have already examined the pitfall, there remains little to say except this: Always look for evidences that you are loving the wrong things. If you love the quiet retreats that you create in order to meet God, you may not love God at all but only the pointless discipline of quietness. If you love the literature of the saints more than you desire to emulate their holiness, you are too much the captive of your reading and not the servant of your Lord. If you seem to talk a lot about prayer but pray very little, you are seeking only a godly mystique and not God himself."


silence



It's so true, sometimes I mistake the form for worship and adoration of God. Not form, no matter how spiritual the form is. Heart of worship without the noise is still not worship unless my love for God goes deep. Then again, going deep is still a vague idea unless my love for God translates into obedience to God, at any cost.




"When I look into your holiness
When I gaze into your loveliness
When all things that surrounds me
Becomes shadows in the light of You"

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