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Surrender

It's easier to sing a song of surrender to God than to live the life of surrenderedness. So easy to respond to an altar call promising to God that we want to surrender but when the situation comes for us to live that surrender, we squirm, struggle, wrestle and sometimes quit surrendering because it is so hard to hand over the control of my life.

It's always easy to believe in God when things are going well for us but when things go the other way, we struggle to grasp faith. Faith becomes more abstract on such a day, such a season. Singing an old song gave new meaning...

Into Your hands, I commit again
With all I am, for you Lord
You hold my world, in the palm of Your Hands
And I am Yours, forever

Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing
With all I am

I'll walk with You
Wherever You'll go, through tears and joy
I'll trust in You
And I will live in all of Your ways
Your promises, forever

A nice song with a very loaded lyrics. Verse 1 still sounds ok... very general but when it comes to verse 2, the composer seems to have DEFINED and Narrowed what commitment is.

I'll walk with You, WHEREVER YOU GO? ---> I ask myself.. really???
Through tears and Joy, i'll trust in You ----> really???
I will live in ALL of Your ways ------> really????

I am sounding cynical and that's because I know what it is to walk away from all these promises I make to God. It's so easy to turn away because we human beings are still very self-centred people. Even our prayers can be self centered. While I was away to the market this morning, I thought about prayer. What kind of prayer God listens to and can I trouble him with trivial prayers?

When I got home, did my devotion and it says that we can tell God everything. Corrie ten Boom was relating a story while in concentration camp that she had a cold and she had no hankerchief. She told her sister Betsie about it and Betsie told her to pray. After her prayer, her name was called out and someone passed her a parcel with a hankerchief inside the parcel. WOW.
God knows all our needs --- NEEDS. So when it is a need, God will answer.

As I meditated on the praying about everything even the petty things of my life, I asked the Lord, how should I pray. I sensed the Holy Spirit saying that I present my request to God. Tell God my needs but don't dictate how He should provide or how the answer should come. In our self centeredness sometimes we unknowingly dictate the results we want God to perform and lose the perspective of surrendering to God and let Him have the say on the outcome.

Lord, may i truly be surrendered.

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