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To find life, lose it.

Matthew 10:39
"He who has found his life will lose it, and he who has lost his life for My sake will find it." (NASB)

This one week, I've been thinking about this verse. I am still challenged and thinking how to lose my life for His sake. Am I still a surrendered disciple to His purpose and will? Am I still surrendering my life to Him everyday. As I thought through this verse by putting my life against it, sometimes I think I don't live for Him enough. There is still this portion of my life reserved for myself. It's like the weed that has to be constantly pulled out so that it doesn't overgrow and crowd out the wheats that are growing well. It's so easy to be satisfied with the status quo of life. It is so easy to miss what God is doing as I become more and more dependent on myself and on the things that surround me everyday. When a want becomes a need, I make myself believe that what I want is what I really need. But Jesus says in Matthew 10:29 - 30

"Are not two sparrows sold for a cent? And yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But the very hairs of your head are numbered. So do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows."

God knows what we truly need.It is so comforting that God cares for the not-so-valuable sparrows, what we disregard as unimportant, God deem them important. Similarly, when we think of ourselves worthy and/or important. When we think that by acquring certain things in life, we've found life, Jesus says, we are about to lose it. When we lose our life for His sake, which means when we make decisions that are God-centred and God-purposed, we will find life. This world imposes fear on us. If I don't make a certain grade, I may not find a good job, earn some good money and will not be able to enjoy a good life. This is the life, lived for myself. Climb the right ladder and I'll be assured of a world of endless luxuries yet when I think I have found it, Jesus says, I will lose it. If I want to find life, I must find Christ. If I lose Christ, I will lose life. I am not condemning those who are rich, wealthy and successful in the world. The important thing is, have I found Christ in the midst of it all. Is God pleased with the way I use my resources, do I find myself losing my life for His sake in the midst of all that I have. If so, then I have found Christ.

To lose my life for HIS sake, is really to bring myself under His Lordship. To consult Him for the decisions I need to make, to trust in Him and not in the system and the riches of this world. To not even trust in my own talents and skills. I pray that my child growing up will know this truth and we've decided over at breakfast this morning that our child will grow up trusting in God. Hopefully we can find a name that fits the meaning. If you have any suggestions, please do drop me a note. :)

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