You are the Potter, I am the clay

This morning I was caught in the rain while I went for my usual marketing routine. As I waited for the rain to stop, I was forced to pause and wait. I remember telling someone on Sunday that I would rather walk to my destination then wait for the transport to come to me. I was compelled to pause. To look at the rain and think about God and life. To reflect on why pauses are necessary in life. God does not want me to cover the breadth of life only but also the depth of life as well. "Thicken the hide but not the heart" - Easy to quote but challenging to live it. It's a constant reflection of my own attitude towards service to God, towards others and how I live my life. The missions calling is still a very real part of me. I know God had spoken. This period is a pause for me, to stay faithful to the things God has called me to do. God says, the Macedonia Call" will come. It will be very very clear from Him. I will leave the "when" to God. Like

Mysterious Baby "milkmaid" baby She seemed to be enjoying her "new look" Adrian and me having dinner together for his birthday

Missions have always been a part of me. Recently I couldn't even tell whether what I was feeling was the result of a personal ambition that needs to be fulfilled or whether God was calling and wooing me again. The lines are very blurred between the former and the latter. I have always felt passionately about it because it's the thing that always kept me looking forward. It will always be my soft spot. God has blessed us to be a blessing. Am I? I came before the Lord and surrendered myself to Him. I told the Lord that if He opens the door, no one can shut and if He shuts the door, no one can open. I choose to put myself at God's disposal and be where He wants me. I believe the day will come where I know God will speak so clearly to me that I will know that it is his will for me to pack and go, of course together with my family. I pray that Charis will learn the life of faith the moment she is able to speak, listen and understand. May our journey with God be life long lesson

1 Corinthians 10:31 - 33 "Whether, then, you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. Give no offense either to Jews or to the Greeks or to the church of God; just as I also please all men in all things, not seeking my own profit but the profit of the many, so that they may be saved." (NASB)

Recently I find myself once again locking horns with the prosperity gospel preachers. The added intensity came when someone passed me some booklets written by John Avazini, http://www.avanziniministries.org/content/. The goal of his ministry is this: "To teach God's people the uncompromised truth about Biblical Economics while delivering an anointing for financial victory." Notice that Bibilcal Economics are in caps. Many of his 'prosperity truths' are scriptures that have been taken out of the context of the passage, misintepretated and misquoted. One example is he takes Mark 4:20 "And those are the ones on whom seed was sown on the good soil; and they hear the word and accept it and bear fruit, thirty, sixty and a hundredfold." He says the seed is the money that we have to give and the good soil is the good ministries that are around e.g. ministries that is Christ-centered and preaching the gospel. So if we accept the word (what he says of seed = money

Charis' smile

Just watched a documentary on North Korea, through the lives of 2 girls who trained hard for the mass games i.e. NK's national day parade. They were gymnasts and their lives revolve arounds their family, school and training... Those who made the cut were selected to display their skill at the mass games. It's also from the interviews of these girls that I took a peek into the lives of the north koreans in Pyong Yang. Every household is given a radio wired up by the govt and placed in the kitchen. The radio can't be turned off except by adjusting the volume. Messages about the great leader would be played 24/7. TV programs only come on for 5 hours a day and heroes of the land would be played over and over again. Even the cartoons were about young boys and girls wanting to join the people's army and serving the general. At school, one of the history lesson shown was about the great leader and his attributes which are, Great Ideology, Great LEadership - oops i forgot the l

My long weekend has been punctuated by wedding and wedding. 9 August was the wedding of Jachin and Yellowrose's and today, 11 August was Lester and Freda's. It's interesting that I've been in RCC for 4 years. How time flies. Jachin, Yellowrose, Lester and Freda are all the new friends I met at RCC. Thank God for them. Jachin is the highly Mr organized. He's very pleasant and what every mum would want her son to be like. Yellowrose has this calm disposition. Even her excitement is calmly exclaimed. :) Lester is the Mr Prim and Proper. Although the only child, he's surprisingly kind, pleasant and unspoilt. Sensible. Freda is Ms Prim and Proper too. She is very nice, gentle and has definite views on matters that are important to her. As I sat through their solemnization, I remembered that my wedding passed not too faraway. I would recall the vows I've made and the words given to us on our wedding day. Indeed, loving each other for better, for worse, for poorer