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Pauses of Life


This morning I was caught in the rain while I went for my usual marketing routine. As I waited for the rain to stop, I was forced to pause and wait. I remember telling someone on Sunday that I would rather walk to my destination then wait for the transport to come to me.
I was compelled to pause. To look at the rain and think about God and life. To reflect on why pauses are necessary in life. God does not want me to cover the breadth of life only but also the depth of life as well. "Thicken the hide but not the heart" - Easy to quote but challenging to live it. It's a constant reflection of my own attitude towards service to God, towards others and how I live my life.
The missions calling is still a very real part of me. I know God had spoken. This period is a pause for me, to stay faithful to the things God has called me to do. God says, the Macedonia Call" will come. It will be very very clear from Him. I will leave the "when" to God. Like I always tell others, blossom where you are planted. Where I am and in all that God has given to me, I must be faithful and be fruitful.
Lord, I want to fulfill my dues in Jerusalem.
Charis woke up with a cough this morning and at the slightest cough, she'll whimpered... while I watched her falling asleep, my heart was filled with love for her. I prayed that God will heal her of this cough and she'll experience God's touch and be able to sleep uninterrupted. As I did that, I sense God's love for me as well. God wants to give to us His best and His love for us never cease.
Thank God for pauses in our lives and for OFF DAYS! YAY!

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