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Final Lap

My final days of work and my final days of pregnancy. While the due date states 20 April, it can happen anytime from now.

We've finally finished fixing up the cot. Why I say finally. When we first got the cot, there were parts that were missing and these parts were important for putting the cot together. By virtue of 'chance' we managed to recover some of the parts on the vehicle that transported the cot yet it was insufficient. So yes, the cot is up and ready to welcome the new family member into our midst.

For me, I am counting down to the days when I eventually give birth so that I can feel lighter. I feel that my legs have been trained with this weight upon me and I believe after my childbirth I can walk faster. Many has commented that parenthood will bring lots of changes to my life, I don't know how but I know it won't be drastic and I will take it in good stride. To be honest, I am more satisfied than euphoric over this new life that God has given. Because spurts of excitement does not last long.

We've decided to name her Charis = Grace/Favour and her chinese name will be Rui Min meaning wise + compassionate. We want her to have the knowledge and the heart for things. Knowing keeps one informed, compassion gets one into action. We pray that God's grace will be upon us to be godly parents.

It's interesting to note that the fears of whether I'll be a good mother has ceased to plague me. Right now, I am looking forward to seeing her (I had a glimpse last night because I dreamed of her) hahaha! For the last few weeks, I have also stopped drinking my favourite beverage i.e. COFFEE. This morning, I tried to down half a cup, I only took 2 sips and threw it away. It's very strange how far I've come. From one who can't live without coffee to one who finds it yucky, I wonder will I recover from this ever.

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