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WHY?

It's the greatest word ever invented. I admit, I ask lots of questions. Sometimes I get the answers and sometimes I don't. When I was younger, I had wanted to be a detective and a lawyer but somehow along the way, I drifted from my ambitions. Yet a larger part of me is still inquisitive. I ask because I want to know and find out.

I don't take "Yes" and "No" as answers on a superficial level especially when the issue is something very important and noteworthy. I question the motives, the reasons behind the answers, behind the actions and the plans. At times I can be quite irritating I must say. My preference for details have further added to my inquisitive disposition. It is normal for me to see things from every angle and I especially delight in seeing cross sections, dissections, bird's eye view and what not. Of course, I do not tire myself by going into every details of life but only some things that really matter to me.

I ask questions but I don't just wait for answers to drop from the sky. I will be determine to find out for myself. Sometimes it's frustrating when I get no answers but that's when I learn to rest in God. I learn to put myself at His feet, relying on His sovereignty and believing that He alone knows what is best. Face it, sometimes, there are just no answers to questions in life.

For me, to ask questions about God and things that relates to ministry, to his word, to the practices of Christianity is vital. I need to know why I am doing what I am doing. The questions are not questions of doubts but questions of clarification. I need to clarify because I need to be clear why I need to do what I need to do. It's about not following blindly, it's about making sense and purpose in the things I am doing in ministry. The values behind the word. The spirit behind the law.

It's also because I took time to take God and Christianity seriously that landed me where I am today. More than the experiences I have with God personally, I've come to learn that His word is true and without error. I've investigated, read, meditated, prayed through to realize that He and His words alone had been the anchor that hold me strong in times of uncertainties, in times of answer-less-ness, in times of trials, in times of growth, in times of disharmonies in relationships. It's by living according to his word during these times I learn that His Words are the surest and most certain way to live.

Thank God that most of the time, His words give me the answers to the questions I ask. I know when it is to REST when silence encounters me as I enter His Presence. He just say, "Just Rest in Me". To hear this is enough for me from my Abba.

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