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Old Year vs New Year

As the steps to the new year quicken, my heart is rested. I'm not particularly excited that new year is coming, it's like another day for me and the calendar goes back to January.

What have I regreted not doing this year?
ans: none
What have I regreted doing this year?
ans: hmmm?? not sure, most probably not.

Whether we have regretted doing or not doing anything, life goes on. I hope 2006 will be a better year where I learn to be a more controlled person. Over the years, I must say I have mellowed down a lot. No, dun misunderstand me, it has nothing to do with age but everything to do with mindset.

When I said I am more mellowed than I was previously, it it means that I am more controlled in the area of reacting to people and situation. But I feel that I can always do better and I want to start 2006 this way. I've always been one who would always cheer about telling the truth but you know truth hurts and truth need not always be told unless and until truth has an audience. Truth need not be blunt, truth need to be communicated in a way people understand. Truth must be clothed with love when conveyed. It is never easy. The only way to help me guage whether if a truth should be spoken is when I asked myself as I have always done so, "Will I regret not saying it?" If the answer is no, I will withhold. If the answer is yes, I will say as it is so.


Truth needs to be released at a right time when the hearer will listen.

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