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Swimming Day


Took Charis for a dip today at the pool. She seemed to be 'enjoying' herself in this 'laid back' pic. I had a good time and I never knew swimming could be that relaxing. It seems that when I took into the pool and swam a few breadths with Charis, the heaviness in my head which I woke up with 'dissipated' into the waters. Honestly, I have never found swimming to have such a calming effect on me, or was it the presence of Charis that made the difference? I enjoy Charis most of the time. She is a gift (someone called her a new "toy") that I will never get tired or sick of. She's a toy that will always be 'updated' because she is growing every moment. Today she tried playing the keyboard and was wondering how come it didn't make any music because it was switched off. She turned, look at me and had that inquisitive look on her face. I simply smiled at her.
"When things on earth that cause the heart to tremble, remembered when will only bring a smile." - What causes my heart to tremble? When newspaper reports of a ferry carrying a load of passengers to Tioman for their holiday, only to be caught in a ferry of fire. When a budget airline crashes unexpectedly causing more than half its passengers their lives and many to lose their loved ones. What causes my heart to tremble? When I am struck with an illness and I am unable to bring up Charis, when I pass on before Charis can grow up and fend for her self, when I go away for mission work and not return because of a mishap. All these causes my heart to tremble... can i go, should i leave? Until Then, my heart will go on singing. I think about such things because I asked myself, what causes my heart to tremble? Yet what can make me sing again? It's when I look to the Lord and know that because HE LIVES, I CAN FACE tomorrow, because HE LIVES, ALL fear is gone, because I KNOW, I KNOW, He holds the future and life is worth the leaving just because He lives.
That's the hope I have, the hope that keeps me singing. Charis is a gift from the Lord and I thank God for this gift. May she grow up singing of this hope that keeps me loving and not fearing.
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