You are the Potter, I am the clay

This photo was taken 20 minutes after her birth on the 22 April 2007. Her birth time was 1.05 am and her weight was 3.05 kg. Length 50cm, head circumference 35cm. Giving birth was certainly an experience. On 21 April, I checked myself into the hospital at 9.30am as I was having some contractions. It was due anyway and I think I had better go in. However, the long wait took place. I was able to endure the contractions until when it came on stronger at about 5pm in the late afternoon. I asked for the anaesthetist to give me the epidural. I endured the pain for almost an hour... alas, I have the experience of what labour is like. The wait continued until 12mn that day. My gynae and the nurses came in and check me almost every half and hour. As things did not seem good, the check was almost every 5 minutes. While there was strong contractions, my baby's position was not engaged (positioned for natural birth) and my cervix was only 5cm dilated, very little compared to the hours of...

The Ms Singapore Universe trailers have been running, introducing this year’s candidates competing for the title. Over the years, there’s been a discussion on whether beauty and brains go together. Well the trailers proved one thing for sure. These ladies have ‘beauty’ if ‘beauty’ is defined by statistics. Some of the pictures taken of them made them look like those seen on chatline advertisements. It has almost reached the stage of being distasteful for me and I am totally grossed out. If the promotional guy who wants to market the next Ms Singapore Universe this way, don’t blame me for judging a book by its cover, it is meant to be this way in the first place. Let’s not argue any more for brains in the beauties, there’s none. Of all the segments in the competition, how many percent is taken to test the brain prowess of these beauties? 10%, 20%, 30%?, Talking about beautiful… none is outstanding by far. Their bikini clad image has masked what beauty is suppose to be. Sluttish and se...

it's 18 April. 2 more days to Charis' arrival. How I wish she's out soon so I'll get to see her. She is about 3.4kg and has put on 300 grams since the last she was measured a week ago. Her head diameter is 10cm, gynae says she is maxed out but seems like there's still space for her to move around. I'll wait though I am getting impatient.

Yesterday, Pastor Ross Paterson came and spoke to us at church. It was a time for me I felt to rededicate to God my life to mission. I have always sensed that call but the question is "WHEN". I had wanted to respond first to the altar ministry but I went up to pray for Veron. I just sensed God leading me there. The moment I prayed for her, words just flowed and I knew God was speaking to her heart as much as God was speaking to me. She felt the tangible presence of God, the heat and all that and I thank God for allowing me to experience his presence in such a real way. When it came to my turn to be prayed for, it was a reassurance and voice from God. One particular thing that spoke to me was she prayed, "When the time comes, you will know and it will be very clear to you." I instantly could identify with what that meant. In my life, I have been very CLEAR in 2 areas. 1. To resign from my job and enter bible school at age 23, 2. To leave my former church which I had ...

My final days of work and my final days of pregnancy. While the due date states 20 April, it can happen anytime from now. We've finally finished fixing up the cot. Why I say finally. When we first got the cot, there were parts that were missing and these parts were important for putting the cot together. By virtue of 'chance' we managed to recover some of the parts on the vehicle that transported the cot yet it was insufficient. So yes, the cot is up and ready to welcome the new family member into our midst. For me, I am counting down to the days when I eventually give birth so that I can feel lighter. I feel that my legs have been trained with this weight upon me and I believe after my childbirth I can walk faster. Many has commented that parenthood will bring lots of changes to my life, I don't know how but I know it won't be drastic and I will take it in good stride. To be honest, I am more satisfied than euphoric over this new life that God has given. Because sp...

English Standard Version Romans 8:32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? God parted with Jesus, his very own, his best gift, will also graciously give us all things both physical and material. As human beings we often look upon one who has been 'blessed' with much. If God has given me this, answered my prayer on this matter, I am blessed. It is true that I am blessed but how about those prayers that God has yet to answer me the way I want it to be answered, am I not blessed because he has not answered or am I waiting to be blessed? Have I used the word 'bless' too loosely that I've fail to see other aspects of answered prayer. Whatever happens to us, happens for a reason i.e. good or bad. Recently my church mission team to Surathani had their boat capsized, they were all saved and we thanked God for the capsize and for their lives saved, even the youngest one amongst them who had n...